Being creative and living in the moment
Spent the day at home in bed, my back decided to remind me that it was still there. Despite the fact I have been a bag of lazy bones normally when my back flares up I get all panicked. I worry about my job is this ever going to end and the “why me”. Today was different I focused on resting my back and relaxing. I did not worry myself to death I took care of myself without feelings of guilt. This is the first time since I don’t know when that I have had a flare up and did not spend the day panicked about the “what if’s”.
So when I was getting ready to work on my post I realized that a change has happened or I should say is happening. I did not let an issue beyond my control cause me undo stress by worrying about what “might” happen. I can honestly say this is the first time I can remember that having an “angry back” day I rested and relaxed like I am supposed too, instead of worrying and only making my muscles more tense. ( I wish it was only a muscle problem but it is not but keeping them relaxed helps the over all situation).
This may seem trivial to some people but I was able to stay in bed all day and not worry for me is something most people close to me will not believe . I am now seeing the shift in my thinking process, as well as how I am letting things affect me. Today was beyond my control I knew it was so I actually followed the doctors orders and rested. In the past I would lay in bed and worry myself sick literally sometimes to being hysterical. Today I am cool as a cucumber.
Progress today was a small step I am now actually moving in the right direction.
Live in the moment.
Be true to yourself and true to others.